Custom Zodiac – Eagle

If I could change my zodiac sign, I’d change it to an eagle. My birthday is in December (Sagittarius).

I love eagles. They are beautiful birds to watch. The way they can soar above the ground and glide with ease through the wind. These birds don’t put up with anything. They go after whatever they want. I’m learning how to fly like an eagle. I’m a quiet kind of person. A bit shy but there is some craziness in me. I’m willing to try new adventures, especially now since I’ve gotten older.

Growing up, there were negative people in my life. They didn’t think I’d become anything. Well, I am about to graduate from a university with a BFA! That’s right! I always loved to write but now I know the proper way to write television and film scripts, video games, and short stories.

I will soar like an eagle!

Hope your day is full of sunshine!

Laurie Jackson πŸ™‚

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Masks Off

Halloween is almost upon us. I am one who just doesn’t get into it. Back in the ’60s, we were never allowed to trick-or-treat. I can’t even remember if we had school parties.

My kids love Halloween. My oldest son gets dressed up every year. He goes all out with his costume and make-up.

No masks for me! Hope you all have a safe and fun Halloween!

May your day be filled with sunshine and candy!

Laurie Jackson πŸ™‚

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Local Color

I would like to keep the yellow sun!! I love how it shines everyday. I love feeling the warmth from the sunshine on my face. Sunshine shows me that we are alive! Sunshine makes me feel wonderful! If there were no color, how dull and boring.

I’m thrilled we don’t have to worry about not having any color. There’s plenty of color in everything. I love seeing rainbows after a storm. I know the world will continue to spin!

May God bless you with tons of sunshine and blessings!

Laurie Jackson πŸ™‚

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Depression Stinks

I suffer from depression. There, I’ve said it!

I’ve had days where all I wanted to do was cry. I didn’t want to get out of bed. I didn’t care if the sun came up or went down. I didn’t understand what was going on with me. I hated feeling the way I did. I finally was able to afford to go to the doctor. She prescribed me some medicine. She didn’t want to go as far as say that I suffered from depression. The medicine really didn’t help. It only took some of the edge off. I was still crying and feeling very down on myself, having suicidal thoughts.

One day, there was an accident that happened with my grandson. I didn’t know he had crawled up by the truck door while I was talking with my son. I shut the door on him! I drove home all the while yelling at myself and calling myself names. I tried to hurt myself once I got home. I went to bed and prayed for death. In the early morning hours, I woke up and called a friend. I told him I needed help. I was having a nervous breakdown.

To make a long story short, I went to the ER who then sent me to a mental hospital. I was there three days. I talked to counselors and doctors. My medicine was changed and I opened up to the counselor and my tears flowed. Apparently, I had a lot of “stuff” eating away at me. Once I had truly cried and was honest with myself, I felt so much better. I was told that what happened with my grandson was an accident. (My precious grandson was fine. There were not even any marks on him).

Since my hospital stay, I have tried to stay positive. My writing helps me to express how I truly feel. I still have days where I smile through the depression. Then, there are times when I am wrapped inside my wonderful husband’s arms and am able to let the tears run like rivers down my cheeks.

I stay away from negative people. I try to find the positive side in everything. I talk with God daily. And, yes, I sit quietly so I can hear what He says. Β I count my blessings daily.

Hope your day is full of sunshine and laughter!

Laurie Jackson πŸ™‚

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Out of Breath

I used to work at a golf course doing landscaping. My hours were 6am to 2pm. I had a short drive to my kids school. Picked them up by 2:45pm. We drove home and I prepared food that my kids could heat up for dinner. After that, I threw a load of laundry in the washing machine. I had to get a few hours of sleep before I went to my second job. I worked overnight from 8pm until 4:30am stocking shelves.

I kept both jobs while I could tell my body was getting worn out. I ignored that nagging little voice in my head telling me to stop working so hard. One morning, I was driving to my landscaping job when I fell asleep at the wheel. I awoke with the front tire off in the ditch. Right then and there I made a decision. I quit my landscaping job but kept my overnight job.

Things slowed down after that. I promised myself I would never have two jobs again. My health had been troubling me. I constantly had migraines. I wasn’t getting enough sleep. I was feeling like a robot.

Life has slowed down completely now. My kids are grown and on their own. Now, I am able to spend everyday with my husband and our dog.

Hope your day is full of blessings and sunshine!

Laurie Jackson πŸ™‚

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Give ‘Em What They Want

I’ve only been blogging a bit over a month. So my stats are all over the place. Some of the top features for me were ones about my family and life–two important things in my life.

Once I graduate from college, I’ll be able to focus more on my blog. Create and write interesting blogs that may bring in more readers. I know I want to add a section of my grandmother’s recipes.

The weekends is when I seem to get the most traffic.

Hope your day is full of sunshine and laughter!

Laurie Jackson πŸ™‚

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Ready, Set, Done

Ten minutes of free writing…

Dear Little Miss Mindy Jo,

It’s hard to believe you have been gone for 26 years. It only seems like yesterday…Elmer still talks about you and says he misses you. He loves you so much. Adele is just as beautiful as you are in my heart. Her mannerisms remind me you of. She sound spells the way you used to. She has dark hair like you (the only granddaughter with dark hair, by the way). I’m pretty sure God had something to do with that. πŸ™‚ Your life here on Earth was short but you touched so many, many people. Even when you were ill from treatments, you stayed positive. You smiled through all the chemo. You were an amazing, smart young girl. I enjoyed the talks we had. I sure do miss those 2 o’clock phone calls. You said once that you weren’t afraid of dying. You just didn’t want to leave Mom alone.

I know you are watching over us down here. Thank you for showing and teaching me how to stay positive even through the hardest times.

I miss you! I love you, Mindy Jo! Hope you are enjoying being with God!

May your day be filled with blessings!

Laurie Jackson πŸ™‚

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Imaginary Friend

My imaginary friend was a doll. Her name was Susie. I received her one Christmas Eve. I think I was about 5 years old. She went everywhere with me. That poor doll was dragged all over the place with me. I told her my deepest secrets. She protected me from thunderstorms. Susie and I read stories together. She and I played under blankets.

I remember that whenever I was afraid, I chewed on poor Susie’s fingers. By dragging her all over the place, her dress was worn out and ripped. At night, when I was scared, I counted on Susie to keep me calm.

She was my best friend. I miss you, Susie!

Hope your day is filled with sunshine and blessings!

Laurie Jackson πŸ™‚

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Grand Slam

My grand slam is coming up in November 2014. Graduation from Full Sail University, Florida–Online. It’s been an interesting 32 months. If it had not been for my wonderful husband, kids and mother, I would not have completed the course. I was taken out of my comfort zone way too many times. Leaving the house to interview a complete stranger. Not my cup of tea.

When I graduated from high school 30 plus years ago, there was no way I was going to college. Life happens and since I kept journals, I learned that I loved to write. Raising five kids, there was no time for me to write. I was getting negative responses from my dad, older brother and at that time husband. (I’ve since divorced him and remarried.) They told me I was too stupid to become a writer.

Well, thanks to Alex (husband) he convinced me to take an online course. By the time I graduate I will have a Bachelor’s Degree in Creative Writing for Entertainment. I want to write children’s stories for my grandchildren. I also want to finish my sister’s story.

Dad is no longer with us but he’ll know I graduated and became a writer.

Five weeks until graduation. It will be strange not to have worry about assignments anymore but it will also be a blessing.

Hope your day is full of sunshine and blessings!

Laurie Jackson πŸ™‚

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Finite Creatures

The first time I experienced a funeral was when I was maybe six or seven. I did not understand why people were so quiet and crying. Mom tried to explain what was going on but I just did not understand.

I think it hit me when my great-grandmother died. I was 15 years. Β She 101 years old. I thought wow how cool. At her funeral, I understood what was going on.

When my grandpa died, it truly hit home for me. I was much older and married. I thought Grandpa hung the moon. I thought he would live forever. I awoke during the night with a feeling that something had happened to Grandpa. I cried and cried. I didn’t like it because someday I pass on. It’s not that I’m afraid of death, I’m more concerned about my loved ones.

Since the passing of my sister, I have tried to stay positive and live each day to the fullest. I appreciate the little things in life.

Hope your day is full of blessings!

Laurie Jackson πŸ™‚

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