Well, I am feeling kinda blah. I am suffering from a mixed bag of emotions right now.
I have six grown children (five from a previous marriage). I am so very proud of each of them. They each have their own lives. It’s just been me and Alex for the last couple of years. I thought, in time, that I would get used to this. I went from having children come and go quite frequently to BAM! just me and Alex. I have to admit I miss my kids daily. Yes, I call them and talk with them.
The other day, Alex suggested to me that at this point of my life, I should be concentrating on myself. Basically, getting to know me again. I’m not used to putting myself first. Even growing up, I had always put others before myself. I saw my mother (and still see her) put herself second. I truly do not know how she was always so calm raising eight kids (almost on her own). I don’t know how she does it now. She keeps herself busy with the grandchildren and great grandchildren. She is rarely home. Guess it’s time for me to have a chat with Mom.
I am so proud and honored to be Mama to my kids. I know they will always need me. I realize there is a time in life when I just have to set them free to live their own lives. I know deep in my heart that they love me. They also know that my door is always open to them. I always tell them that I am here for them. I am just a phone call away.
I love you, Elmer, Kyle, Casey, Jesse, Adele and Tabitha!!!!
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